so yeah im so out of drawings recently but dont you worry ill be back in the game soon lol yeah i know that sounded mad corny. Well i've been extremely busy with school, have gotten so much and for the record im a still a sophmore in highschool. So yeah i labeled the subject of this journal guys so ofcourse im going to be talking about guys. I have guy issues, well so iv'e been talking to a guy for months now and our relationship isnt going anywhere .............. he makes me feel like crap sometimes. I think its desi men seriously their so egotistic. They would choose pride over love when it's suppose to be the other way around. Well so I THink i really like this guy because nowadays ive been trying to keep myslef busy with school work and for a while i didnt think about him as much but this weekend i crashed. Its so tough to face reality and im so two sided about the issue, at one point I hate this guy the next point i love him. It sucks. I cant make up my mind. This guy he has issues too, i mean he doesent have time on his hands as well and sometimes i wonder if he really likes me or if its just all b.s. I know he's a flirt and im no less ; )
I seriously have bad luck when it comes to guys, it never works out and usually i stop being attracted to a guy after the second date, I know that sounds so awkward, but trust me its weirder than that. I think I'm just going to try and focus on school but then I cant help hes going to cross my mind eventually. I never felt this lost and somehow I look older than my age but still, and that always gets to me I mean if I looked younger I wouldnt get older guys like him, well hes not that much older, its legal but still. Yes Im whining and I couldnt find any other place to vent except deviant art. Oh and for the record I'm still learning Photoshop in school and I still dont know how I can convert traditional art- pencil drawing to digital drawing without taking it forever so if you guys can help me it would be nice.